a bjd's ahoge being pushed; text reads 'boing' multiple times with ! ! !! ! at the end
nadeko sengoku and tsukihi araragi from the monogatari series

aaron ⬫ he/they ⬫ 18yo

transmasc ⬫ autistic ⬫ neo-hippie & weeb


hi i think the internet is fun and i like to learn about stuff & make friends! dont hesitate to dm me i love the attention but kinda suck at social stuff so be patient!

site last updated 12/6/2021

oc artwork by shnva on Pixiv, click image for source

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dni/byf

Please do not interact if:

basic dni criteria ( racist / sexist / transphobic / ableist / map / pear / ect )
gatekeeper ( truscum / terf / ect.)
christian
right-wing
fujoshi
jumin han enjoyer (i just don't like the type of people who like him)

Things to know if you follow me:

i use tone indicators whenever possible and appreciate when others use them for me

nsfw jokes and hornyposting often

please do not make de-realization / timeline shift jokes with me. You can post about it generally but please do not say nothing is real in response to something i say.

interests

i remove stuff when i don't really care about it anymore i just like alot of media
everything is in alphabetical order

special interests
permaculture ! monogatari series ! occult ! osu!mania ! kaiji

general
animal care, birding, cob architecture, idols, ikemen, iyashikei, plushies, rhythm games, psychedelic fashion

animanga
seasonal anime [ link ]
chobits, clannad, cutie honey, devilman (manga), dragon maid, fate series, girls last tour, great teacher onizuka, higurashi, idoly pride, kaiji, lain, love live, lupin III, bakemonogatari, monster (naoki urasawa), mp100, oddtaxi, promare, quintessential quintuplets, sayonara zetsubou sensei, welcome to demon school irima-kun, welcome to the nhk, yu yu hakusho, yuru camp


youtubers
vtubers: belmond banderas, himawari honma, tsunomaki watame, yukoku roberu
people: all gas no brakes, cgp grey, contrapoints, damien echols, exurb2a, fumostv, foolish fish, gigguk, hbomberguy, hiding in public, nakeyjakey, of herbs and altars, ordinary things, red bard, salari, second thought, sky life, super eyepatch wolf, the liberal cook, thought slime, tom nicholas, we're in hell, what i've learned, こりゃめでて

games
goatlings, katawa shoujo, neopets, osu!, subahibi, touhou series, yakuza series


music
cream, earthless, fleetwood mac, new order, pet shop boys, santana, streetlight manifesto, talking heads, the the, they might be giants


comfort charecters

oc artwork by siera on Pixiv, click image for source

artwork by siera on Pixiv, click image for source

kins!

Just think of it as characters that I relate to alot or patterens that I see myself in. High kins are 'me irl' territory but I still love meeting doubles! Don't take any of this too seriously.

High Kin

Nadeko Sengoku - Monogatari Series
Ayumu Kasuga / Osaka - Azumanga Daioh
Tsubasa Hanekawa - Monogatari Series
Ryuugu Rena - Higurashi
Iwakura Lain - Serial Experiments Lain
Misaki Nakahara - Welcome To The NHK
Koyomi Araragi - Monogatari Series

Medium Kin

Chitose Karasuma - Gi(a)rlish Number
Nozomi Toujou - Love Live!
Kazuya Hyoudou - Kaiji Series
Kaoruko Moeta - Comic Girls

Low Kin

Rina Tennoji - Love Live!
Haru Nonaka - Yesterday wo Utatte
Sayu Ogiwara - Higehiro
Kanon Shibuya - Love Live!
Yu Ishigami - Kaguya-sama wa Kokurasetai
Futaba Igarashi - Senpai ga Uzai Kouhai no Hanashi
Rudeus Greyrat - Mushoku Tensei
Elaina - Majo no Tabitabi

random facts

timezone: pacific (UTC/GMT -7 hours)favorite colors: burnt orange and british racing greenfavorite animals: snails, crows, pigeonsastrology: leo sun, taurus moon, sagittarius rising64PT: IF*U(Iu Fo Uu) [ x ]i have a v pretty irl boyfriend we have been together for 5 years i love him alot

extras
gender + sexuality + neos
husbandos
songs currently stuck in my head

have a nice day frien

Reasons for kinning in order of character

This is mostly to clear up 'problematic' kins and expand on the reasons that I heavily relate to specific characters. Please note this may include spoilers. Much easier if you CTRL+F and put in the character's name since its a bit hard to navigate.


Nadeko Sengoku - First of all I do not kin bakemonogatari nadeko / nadeko told through araragi's perspective. I kin s2 nadeko's arcs.
The reasons are mixture of constant masking, a need to be out of anyone's way, doing what's "expected" without considering my own feelings and opinions like reading from a script, apologizing frequently, feeling like others hate me and trying to stay detached, feeling like i am cringy / all of my interests are shameful, that the character I play into is better than a 'true self' that i cannot even find anymore, a desire for unrequited love based on it being 'safer' than putting myself out there, comphet, and of course good ol delusions / hallucinations.
"Sure, I am a cute brat, but that's not really my fault, is it? I hate myself too. But this is me - this is who I am - so what can I do? No matter what I may be like, this is still who I am, so what else can I do but like myself? So I have to love myself - who I hate so much. I need to become a god so I can love myself, no matter who I am." - Nadeko Sengoku
This video sums it up nicely too

Ayumu Kasuga / Osaka - Not as deep, I am just autistic and really enjoy a 'moe' autistic character that is loved by her friends and seen in a positive light. I tend to also be 'spacey' and space out frequently. Also not very athletic, hate spicy things, have weird associations / ideas, and a tendency to repeat sayings / words.

Tsubasa Hanekawa - Very similar reasons as Nadeko. Constant masking, playing off difficult emotions and bottling them up to preserve an image or to 'not cause trouble', having little to no empathy, doing things as scripted events based on what is expected of the image from others, tries to put the whole burden on myself and hates getting any form of help, re-framing trauma to try to romanticize it or make it ok without addressing the feelings of it, being constantly disconnected, and being ok with everything.
Another video that explains it better

Ryuugu Rena - Masking contentedness to not worry friends, using a caring + airheaded + aloof persona, being very protective of friends, always thinking of friends and tries to pick up on their clues, paranoia, putting extreme amounts of trust in others yet feeling like confiding in them would only hurt them or is a sign of weakness, and of course making weird noises whenever I see something cute.
Yet another video that explains them

Misaki Nakahara - seeking out those 'lower than yourself' to feel validated / savior complex, bad taste in men, distrust in god, abusive religious household, and masking.

Koyomi Araragi - Going from being a loner nerd who hates himself to having alot of friends, a partner, and being in a positive environment but still not being able to take off the shackles of depression. Questions if he 'deserves' the life that he has. Acting silly / goofy and making constant jokes whenever the conversation turns to yourself. Constantly ignoring the darker feelings and telling yourself it was in the past and no longer needs to be acknowledged. Being willing to go to extreme lengths to help those around me, not caring or thinking about any serious harm that will come to me as a result. Overthinks past situations and feels like none of his actions are good enough. Hypersexual, often makes sexual jokes. Thankfully I am working on trying to accept my Ougi but I'm still not too sure how, she always seems to come back.
Even more video analysis of my kins

Still working on this, check back later ^^